
Even though there are thousands of posts about what to pack in your hospital bags I thought I’d share with you what’s inside mine. I don’t really remember packing much last time and got away with just 1 bag but we ended up in hospital for a week so the OH ended up bringing in more stuff for me and baby. This time I’ve packed a bag with toiletries for me and baby in one bag and clothes for us both in another. When I went to my 36 week appointment with the midwife she asked if I had packed my bags and to be honest I didn’t, I’ve finally gotten myself organised and had them packed for about a week now. I really don’t seem to be in such a rush this time but I’m glad I’m finally organised.
I have to say that pregnancy isn’t always about that glow, and looking amazing. I have to say that this time around I’ve found pregnancy to be the complete opposite of my first. I’ve felt a little more relaxed as I’ve kind of known what to expect, I did find out early on this time and so it seems like a much longer pregnancy. I’ve had a few of the same symptoms as I did with Mason, chronic heartburn and constipation, going off my tea and coffee. However, I have suffered with morning sickness this time around. I have found that I’ve had lots of different things during this pregnancy and thought I’d share my struggles with you today.
When I was pregnant with Mason I had no idea what to expect, I was never really around babies growing up and I most certainly never had those mothers instinct. I’ll be honest, I never wanted children. So when I found out late on in my first pregnancy that I was, in fact, pregnant I had one of those panicky feelings that never really disappeared throughout the remainder of my pregnancy. How would I know what to do?? What if I didn’t bond with the baby?? What if I didn’t even want him when he was here?? Could I cope with a newborn?? So many questions I kept asking myself. What if I never had those motherly instincts kick in?? I seriously doubted myself quite a lot. But I have to admit, as soon as Mason arrived (even though it was traumatic and I get anxious thinking about going through it all again) those instincts kicked in and I went from being the most un-maternal person to someone that is very much so a maternal woman. I think I surprised a lot of people, myself included.